thank you, kerry and thank jen for me. i didn't have a good day today. i can't seem to stop crying. i think reality is finally slapping me upside the head and the thought of never having gary's arms around me again is almost more than i can stand.
i am letting the dogs sleep with me. last night, in the middle of the night, they both decided to curl up next to me. i woke with a start, it almost felt like gary was snuggling with me and oh, it just made me so sad when i realized that was happening only in my dreams.
i talked to a friend today who has suffered a similar loss. she said maybe it really WAS gary snuggling up to me. i'll just tell myself it was another sign from him that he truly is looking down on me and watching over me.
