[Nina51]

i'm glad we all have each other, too, kellie. i lost my dad almost 12 years ago. i remember it like it was yesterday. my dad was my best friend. even though it was a terrible loss, i can't compare it to this.

when my dad died, i didn't feel like i lost of part of myself. i don't remember feeling like i just wanted to curl up and die. i miss him as much today as i ever did but it may sound strange to say, i don't miss my dad like i miss gary. maybe it's because we lived so far apart for so long. i depended on my dad for weekly phone calls and visits once or twice a year and i always knew he was there if i needed him but i depended on gary for my very existence.

not a day went by that gary didn't tell me he loved me and i was the best thing that ever happened to him. knowing i will never hear him say those words to me again is pure agony. i have never hurt this much in my entire life.